Hope you haven’t forgotten about me.
It has been about 5 months and I think it’s safe to say that I am back. Taking time off and just stepping away from everything was one of the best things I could have done for myself. I had began to feel as though I was drowning from everything and everyone around me. I felt drained day in and day out and I just had to escape from that reality.
Everything was slowly falling apart and I needed to find a way to fix it before I lost who I was as a person. Trying to please everyone just eats you up and you forget who you are. I was in a situation where I was letting everyone dictate to me what I should be doing and how I should be going about it. Home felt like the last place I wanted to be ’cause it was just cold.
When life hits, it hits you so hard you break inside. I closed myself off from the world because experience has taught me that you have to deal with you before you can deal with others. I usually receive this comment. ‘You are doing psychology, I’m sure you solve your own problems.’ Excuse me, but we to are human so we do need a shoulder once in a while. I vented, I cursed at the world, I cried, punched a few walls and even wrote letters that I read out loud. And in doing all this, I released so much pain a weight started to lift off my shoulder.
I began to find myself again and connect with who I am and what I was created for. It took a lot in me to accept that life is always going to throw the worst of the worst at you, you just need to know that you are fully equipped to handle everything.
I am happier than I was 5 months ago. I do take time to breath and assess every situation and not run into it blindly, crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. With each passing day I am more at peace with myself than the day before.
In the beginning of the year a huge curve ball was thrown at me and with finding myself and learning what I have learnt I was ready to face it. If that is my new path bring it on, but guess what? It was just life saying, ‘gotcha, I was just making sure that you are ready for reality, so just go back to your usual shenanigans.’
And with that I’m back to blogging, vlogging and facing the world with a smile each day.
Life is always going to be there, just remember that you are never alone and you are ready for it.